Downward spiral throw out.

A word of advice. Never become a writer.

Why? Well, I will tell you.

Eventually, you start to believe your own bullshit.  Delude yourself into seeing things that aren't there. You are convinced at first that situations are innocent, then your friends say they are not, and you believe them. Just trust your instincts.

Fairy tales are just that. Never going to happen. Especially not to me.

So I open my mouth, loaded with misconceived information, that I didn't want to believe to begin with, and now I am pretty sure I fucked something up that could have pretty awesome. Ugg, I should be used to this by now, but I guess it never gets easier.

I have deleted two posts this week, which I never do. I over stepped, caught up in a moment of irrationality, that I should have been smart enough to avoid.

My apologies world, for not being better than my illness. Not this time.

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