Star Kava Author

My computer is being stupid. So I must post my Tuesday tease here. Enjoy! "I'm just so tired. Tired of all of the hate and ugliness. Tired of trying to be something I am not. I can't do it anymore. If I could just walk away, leave it all behind, I would do it in a heartbeat. It seems to me I could just fade away and no one would even notice. Yet the indelible need to be loved leaves such a dull ache in my heart. So I persevere. Every single day I just persist. But nothing ever changes. Nothing in my life is fulfilling. People tell me to let go, to stop caring, but I cannot. The only time I feel whole is when I am helping others, making them smile. At the end of the day, though, I know that very few would do the same for me. That is what breaks my heart the most. Somewhere along the way, people just decided that my job was to build them up. Yet at the same time, they are happy to just stand there and watch me fall. I can't fathom that. Just letting someone be o...

something new that has been keeping me awake at night Bam. Bam. Bam. I flinch awake as the gunshots echo off the brick walls in the narrow alley. Just like they do every night in my dreams. The room is pitch-black and stifling hot as I lay beneath the bodies that are draped over me. Bam. Bam. Bam. The loud staccato echoes again, only this time I recognize it as a knock on my hotel room door. “Violet, baby, there is someone at the door.” Quinn whines in her French accent as she rolls away, relieving me of some of the heat and sweat that was beginning to suffocate me.   I watch her pale, soft form curl into a ball and return to her slumber.   The dead weight over my legs has yet to move, and my feet have lost feeling. Shoving at the large muscular leg of … fuck what’s his name…fucking Sasquatch with as hairy as this guy is. He grunts unintelligibly as he rolls to his stomach, his bright white ass cheeks almost lighting the room.   I shake my head...